I hear that word and want to bolt. I struggle with fundraising. When it was time for me to send out my fundraising letters my palms started to sweat and my heart started beating fast. I know, I am the Queen of Drama. But honestly, I have a problem with fundraising. I finally sent out the letter, but not without a lot of proofreading and prayer.
Now, in this part of my journey fundraising is critical, and somehow I feel frozen. Because to me I feel like I’ll never get to the amount I need. The question I ask myself is, “How do I make my cause and my mission sound legit enough for people to invest into my ministry?” I find this question popping up a lot when I think about fundraising, and I also feel a boat load of worry swimming up.
However, throughout all of this I am learning that this is what depending on the Lord really means. I feel my faith being stretched, and it is NOT comfortable. I have confidence though, at the end of this whole journey the Lord will get maximum glory no matter what. I am learning, possibly struggling, to grasp the concept of fully depending on the Lord. I find myself trying to take control and telling God, “Hey, I got this part.” (I gotta lot of nerve, huh) But God, ever so patiently, has been telling me, “No, Bayli. I got this part.”
And this is not some one moment thing. I have to do this daily. I wake up reminding myself that God’s got this. It’s in His hands. So as I freak out about getting funds to cover this trip, Jesus nudges me and I willingly hand over the reins. I realize, alone, I can’t accomplish this. But when I let the Lord take control it seems like the word impossible is not even apart of the vocabulary.
As I put things in perspective I am thankful for this opportunity to fundraise. I am learning daily to depend on the One who knows my heart and all of my dreams.
Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken. My salvation and my honor depend on God; he is my mighty rock, my refuge. Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge.