Calling Me Home.

A lot has happened since the last blog post. A lot.

At first, it was overwhelming and a bit hard to accept. I know God is at work, and I’m fully trusting in His goodness.

I’ll begin with; I’m not going back to LSU. God has made it perfectly clear that home is where I need to be at this moment. I don’t know why, but it all goes back to trusting Him. So now that I am home, not even currently enrolled in another school I find myself staring at my bedroom ceiling asking God, “Now what?” No joke.

At the beginning of the year I had laid out all the plans and things I would do at LSU. I mean I had a whole list, almost set in stone. However, God had other plans. He gently corrected me, and made me realize that no matter how great my intentions were about LSU; I was still stepping out of His will for my life. I realized that me and my “don’t-take-no-as-an-answer” attitude was stopping me from fully submitting to God’s will. I wasn’t trusting Him fully with my life because I was clinging to LSU like it was the only good thing that God was doing for me.  He dealt with me for real one night though. I was sprawled out on my bathroom floor having to surrender that part of my life literally saying, “it is well even if You take LSU.” It was hard. I cried a lot.  For days.

But God is good. I’m not going to LSU, but now I’m beginning to see all the things He has in store for me. So as I sit here with my list in shreds, but my heart filled with joy. I know I’m not about to make the same mistake twice and try to write a new list without including God, and not having Him be the center of it.  I have an outline of things, but now I know that can change at any second. He’s really keeping me on my toes, and I like it.

I am being called home this season. Not out of some punishment for not surrendering to His will, but out of love. He loved me enough to turn me around to not miss the blessings He has been so eagerly waiting to pour out on my life!

This is me, Bayli Tiara Hill, having fully surrendered my whole life to God. I understand that God will never leave me or forsake me. He has promised me that this is my year of double portion, and that I should ask for favor while favor is falling. I promise to abide in His will for my life, and continue to believe in the words He has spoken over me.

Lord, I’m ready. I trust You.

Isaiah 30:18 (AMP)

And therefore the Lord [earnestly] waits [expecting, looking, and longing] to be gracious to you; and therefore He lifts Himself up, that He may have mercy on you AND show loving-kindness to you. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed (fortunate, happy, to be envied) are all those who [earnestly] wait for Him, who expect AND look AND long for Him [for His victory, His favor, His love, His peace, His joy, and His matchless, unbroken companionship]!

Stay posted. There’s a lot of new things that will be sprouting up in my life, and I can’t wait to share!  

2 thoughts on “Calling Me Home.

  1. The summer after I graduated high school, I was all signed up and enrolled in classes at the college that I was dying to go to. Everything was all set and ready to go and then one little piece of paperwork fell through the cracks and I wasn’t assigned a room or anything. Long story short, I wasn’t able to go away in the fall and I had to stay home (which was the absolute last thing I said I would do). Anyway, I have to say, I learned SO much about myself and God with that one year – I can’t imagine where I would be now if I hadn’t had that year to focus on life rather than college (academics, social life, the whole shebang). I didn’t have any friends who had stayed home so I didn’t have anyone going through the same thing as me and it forced me to look to God, and to think about my life. I even picked up some new hobbies and got a promotion at my job that year. I know this is like a typical “stick with it, you’ll get through it” kind of thing but seriously, God has a plan and our plans are never as good as His. I learned that year that no matter what I plan on my own, His plans are the only ones that will work anyway so now I face life with a new patience to wait for His timing and direction. =] Sorry that was so long!

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