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Hillsong UNITED Oceans (Where Feet May Fail) Lyric Video

I don’t think I have the right words to really express how I feel right now. Honestly, I have never really stepped out on faith like this in my life. With my mission trip deadlines I feel like this is a whole new world. However, I’m stepping out. After a lot of tears, confusion, and frustration I know that this is what it really means to step out on faith. Realistically, the numbers say I won’t be able to go on my trip, but I know that’s not the case. As I feel this nudging to go ahead to finally step into the water, I know God won’t fail me. As I walk farther my faith won’t weaken, but I will be strong and no obstacle or deadline can stand in the way of what God’s plan is for my life.
So this is me stepping out in faith, and walking confidently knowing that I am made stronger in my Savior.
I feel like this song says what I can’t seem to put into words.

Finding the blessing in fundraising.

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Fundraising.

I hear that word and want to bolt. I struggle with fundraising. When it was time for me to send out my fundraising letters my palms started to sweat and my heart started beating fast. I know, I am the Queen of Drama. But honestly, I have a problem with fundraising. I finally sent out the letter, but not without a lot of proofreading and prayer.

Now, in this part of my journey fundraising is critical, and somehow I feel frozen. Because to me I feel like I’ll never get to the amount I need. The question I ask myself is, “How do I make my cause and my mission sound legit enough for people to invest into my ministry?” I find this question popping up a lot when I think about fundraising, and I also feel a boat load of worry swimming up.

However, throughout all of this I am learning that this is what depending on the Lord really means. I feel my faith being stretched, and it is NOT comfortable. I have confidence though, at the end of this whole journey the Lord will get maximum glory no matter what. I am learning, possibly struggling, to grasp the concept of fully depending on the Lord. I find myself trying to take control and telling God, “Hey, I got this part.” (I gotta lot of nerve, huh) But God, ever so patiently, has been telling me, “No, Bayli. I got this part.”

And this is not some one moment thing. I have to do this daily. I wake up reminding myself that God’s got this. It’s in His hands. So as I freak out about getting funds to cover this trip, Jesus nudges me and I willingly hand over the reins. I realize, alone, I can’t accomplish this. But when I let the Lord take control it seems like the word impossible is not even apart of the vocabulary.

As I put things in perspective I am thankful for this opportunity to fundraise. I am learning daily to depend on the One who knows my heart and all of my dreams.

Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken. My salvation and my honor depend on God; he is my mighty rock, my refuge. Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge. 

Psalm 62:5-8

Impromptu Garage Sale

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Today, I woke up to my brother and neighbors yelling at me that there was going to be a garage sale. I had taken some sleeping medicine the night before and my brain was not processing what they were saying.
I finally got out of bed and found some stuff to give to the sale. It was fun. I’m trying to fund raise for my mission trip so I want  to get rid of everything. I sold a few thing today, but I still have stuff left over. Next garage sale is gonna be next week!

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