Sing a New Song

A new season. A fresh anointing. The sun is beginning to rise over days I never imagined.

BUT no one warned me about the fear that would try to cripple me.

The fear of failure and the comfort of complacently has dragged me down. This process of discovering the new season of my life has not been an easy walk. It has caused me to take note of the things that I need to work on and things to let go of. It has been difficult, but extremely humbling. I realize now that as I have walked through the lonely corridor of introspection, that God has been gently molding and preparing me for whats to come.

I have found hope in dwelling on what He has done. He called me to LSU to experience the Holy Spirit on a whole new level. He called me back home in the midst of my brokenness to build up my faith. He sent me to Haiti (TWICE!) to fulfill a promise and reawaken a dormant dream. He has placed me at Lakewood Church to serve; to pour into my church as much as it has poured into me. And now as He is calling me into leadership I realize that all along He has prepared me for such a time as this.

Fear has tried so hard to take away my joy. It’s crazy because the voice of failure has never been so loud and the sting of rejection has never been this sharp. However, Jesus has been as faithful as ever. Quickly refuting the lies with truth. Filling me with a double measure of joy and peace. He has given me the confidence to step into my new season. To taste and see of His goodness.

So, here’s to a new season.

A fresh anointing.

A fresh perspective.

A new song.

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Fried Chicken and Waffles.

Community.

This is something that I have literally been thrust into the last few months here at LSU, and it has been absolutely wonderful. And to think it all started with chicken and waffles.

My prayer before stepping on LSU’s campus was that I would find a church home quickly, and meet people who were truly passionate about God. I told myself I refused to lose sight of why God had me at LSU. I was researching churches, stalking church Instagrams, and asking people about the churches they had attended while going to LSU. I was a little nervous because I knew that I would have to step out of my comfort zone I had created in Lakewood. My second week on campus I saw on Instagram flyer for free chicken and waffles; and y’all already know I was there with bells on! This is when the world-wind began. I talked to one girl who said she would give me a ride, met the praise and worship leader who just poured out his passion for music, and then ended up meeting the college pastor who was so excited to just welcome everyone in. I was absolutely blown away by everyone’s hearts and I felt so free just to tell them what I was looking for in a church. Nothing has been the same since that night. I have now found a church and I am just so grateful for God’s amazing way of answering prayers.

My church home in Baton Rouge is called Antioch Community Church. Antioch is so completely different from Lakewood, but somehow they are similar. And it’s only because the Spirit of God resides in both. After my first service at Antioch I knew I was there to stay because I felt the same way I felt when I was at Lakewood. The difference in numbers between the churches means nothing when you know that the Lord is moving in both. It’s funny; when I was there I knew for sure God is doing something at Antioch, and I knew I had to be apart of it.

Life-group. Oh man, life-group. I have so many words to say and to type but nothing can quite explain the beauty of the way God has used life-group to impact my life. I have felt so loved and cared for by these people it’s insane. I’m like smothered in love, but in a good way. The hearts and passion for Jesus the people in my life-group have inspired me. I knew that it was where I needed to be when I boo-hoo cried in front of all of them. I was horribly embarrassed, but God used them to show me that He hears my prayers and I’m not alone at LSU. Each and every one of them have become my dearest friends. I have found freedom in this community.

I also have to just give y’all a glimpse of how God is moving on this campus.

Last night, after a long night of studying (not really); my friends and I went out to eat and just hang out. At 1am, we were just talking and sharing about our churches back home and just things that God has done in our lives. And without any warning, no special invitation, the Holy Spirit showed up. We just got into this atmosphere of prayer. We prayed for the unsaved people in my dorm, for our families, for our anxieties, for our church, for more diversity in our church, and just for God to do some radical stuff on LSU’s campus. After the prayer we were just in shock, and couldn’t believe what happened. Those prayers didn’t come from us. It was literally the Holy Spirit speaking through us all. By that time it was 2am and we were absolutely pumped and didn’t want to part ways.

This is what I jotted down after I slipped into my dorm at 2am:

October 15, 2013

Tonight was so powerful! The Lord is moving. The fact that we prayed to 2 am just sharing about God and church. And THAT PRAYER! God is shaking up some stuff and stirring the hearts of His servants. We have seen the glory of God and we are not ashamed to proclaim His name! This community has invested so much into me. I feel so blessed and loved by everyone. Accepted. There is a freedom here that is also at Lakewood, that just draws you in. I see how God is moving. The church is bursting at its seams. Hearts are on fire and ready to learn more about Jesus. The hunger for You is so prevalent and real.