You Are

You are a woman.

A marvelous tapestry of nurturing tendencies and emotions.

You have permission to laugh loudly at the wrong time, to be clumsy, and to say the wrong things.

You can be emotional, and allow things to touch you deeply.

You have permission to ugly cry in secret and in front of others.

You have something to say, so why not say it?

You are creative and a force to be reckoned with.

You are filled with grace. Not only for others, but most importantly for yourself. You will forgive yourself for the things done in the past and the things you will do in the future.

You are dynamic.

A constantly evolving story that anyone has the privilege go be apart of.

You are allowed to spell things wrong, spill things on your nice dress, and speak your mind on what stirs your heart.

You are not perfect and you might not ever be able to wear heels after a long night, but you have your whole life ahead of you to improve. And what a glorious adventure that will be!

You are a traveler. One who knows no stranger.

You are not bound by other’s words, misconceptions, or judgements.

Continue to talk fast, sing loud, and laugh till your cheeks hurt.

Remember your Maker, and remember your shame no more.

Let your hair frizz and tangle. Let your hands get colorful and dirty. Let your insecurities know who you are.

You are well-loved, so love deeply and confidently. Continue to study love, learn to love others better and more fully.

You are no fool. Your momma made sure of that. She taught you that you have wisdom granted to you from the Good Lord to get you through every situation. All you have to do is ask.

You won’t forget those who came before you. You honor those who sacrificed for you, and set the foundation for your many years to come.

You are strong and unique. You are all you need to be for such a time as this.

You are fiery and brave. Nothing can stop you or discourage you from what the Lord has called you to do.

You are hopeful. You continue to hope, expect, and pray for what’s to come.

You are confident that no weapon formed against you will prosper.

You are loud! Heard by all and loved by many. However, make sure you continue to use discernment for those times when silence is key and words aren’t needed.

You are a beautiful woman.

You are brighter than any sun, richer than any chocolate cake, and bolder than any strong coffee.

You are a life that reflects freely of your Creator.

Embrace what the Son has to offer you, you beautiful woman.

Let This Fire

I’ve felt a little restless lately. I just knew something was right, and it hasn’t been right for some time.

These past couple of weeks as reality and life have hit me hard I’ve realized that this fire in me has dimmed.

I feel it. My life has begun to echo its hollowness, and it needs to change. Today.

My prayer is that God kindles a fire in me like never before.

Let this fire be insatiable; overwhelming in all of it power.

Let this fire be sweet; encompassing me in a grace that calls me home into Your arms.

Let this fire be passionate; pursuing me in the darkness and carrying me back to safety.

Let this fire be limitless; pushing me out of my comfort zone, and calling me to places I’ve never ventured.

Let this fire be gentle; as it smothers me in love that fills every aching need.

Let this fire abound; not stopping with me, but consuming others in my life.

Let this fire be unquenchable; as I hunger and thirst for more of Your presence.

Let this fire blaze; refining me into the woman you have called me to be.

Let this fire be found in me.

Let my life catch flame and speak volumes of Your tender mercies and majestic glory.

004

Amen.

For our “God is a consuming fire.” – Hebrews 12:29

Image

On My Heart

At the beginning of the year I never would have thought I would be where I am today. All my plans got trashed, but God brought in plans that have flooded my life with so much light. I am learning about the beauty of the process, the goodness of friendships, the fruitfulness of listening, the simplicity of living in the moment, and the joys of being spontaneous. I still wonder why I haven’t felt the same since Haiti. My thoughts never stray too far from that beautiful country. I continuously pray and believe for the miracles that God will perform there. I just pray that I am there to bear witness to them. But for now, I am trusting God in my process. The process of learning the awesomeness of God and learning who God has made me to be. It’s not easy, and I have to work through some growing pains. However, as I grow, I am rooted in the knowledge that God sings a song of love and hope over me every day.

When God Provides.

Yesterday.

I have plenty of words and phrases,but I don’t know how I’m going to put it all together so you can get the full impact of what God did yesterday.

I think I’ll just jump into what happened.

After Pastor Jake taught we had a response time where anyone can go and receive prayer. In the middle of response time Pastor Jake got back on stage and said that anybody who needs peace just raise your hand. Now, I thought I had all the peace in the world but the Lord thought other wise and next thing I know my hand is in the air. Pastor Jake continued talking and the only thing I comprehended out of his mouth was financial peace. Who knew that those two words could open up a floodgate of tears? Well they did, and I realized that for this whole semester in the back of my mind I’ve been constantly worried about tuition. As next semester is coming up they released my next fee bill. I haven’t even looked at it in fear that I’ll go through what I with through at the beginning of the semester. And no matter how many times I pep talk myself; that darn financial burden leaves me cowering in a corner.

As I kept praying and crying I felt God’s peace just wash over me. I continued to pray for financial breakthrough for my family and for next semester. He even gave me a promise that I will never lack for all the days of my life. At the end of service I had God’s peace in my heart and was finally able to wipe my tears. In my head I literally said “Thanks God. That was good. I finally got it off my chest.” Not knowing that God had more up his sleeve.

I was packing up and scrubbing my face trying to make my eye make up look presentable again when a man tapped me on the shoulder. He took my hand a placed a bill in it.  Cue the waterworks! I was a mess hugging and thanking this stranger. He hugged me and told me that God has heard my prayer. He walked away leaving me with the money in my hand, and my eye makeup smeared all over my face again. Then I just bolted. Don’t ask, but I felt like I needed to fall apart somewhere. Not in a bad way, but as in did-God-just-do-what-I thought-he-did kind of way. Oyinda followed me to the restroom and I told her everything that happened between in and our of tear bouts. I was still in shock and completely just in awe.

I didn’t open the bill up until I was in the car, and this man gave me $100!  At this, tears began to swell AGAIN. I promise I’m not this weepy, but God kept reducing me to tears yesterday morning.

ALSO, get this. I have never seen this man in my life. I go to that church every Sunday, and I am even on the greet team. I saw him walk in and sit in the corner by himself and he didn’t really engage in conversation with anyone. And then right after service I watched him as he walked out of the door without talking to anyone either. It didn’t really connect in my mind until later, but I am fully convinced that man was sent from God just to confirm to me that he heard my prayer. I’ve debated if he was an angel or just some random man visiting Antioch. But you know what, I think he’s an angel because that’s what God does and I fully believe they walk among us.

“Oh Jesus” was literally the only thing I could say on the ride back to campus. I am so grateful that God would do that just for me. And it just came out of no where! Jesus answered my prayer, and moved mountains just to remind me that he heard my prayer. No emoji can show all the emotions I am feeling now. God is so faithful. He will never leave or forsake us. He hears our prayers and He knows each and every one of our needs!

Philippians 4:19

Processed with VSCOcam with t1 preset

Can I get an “Amen?”